Frank nods slowly, knowing that with all the shit Matt's been through, physically as well, he can't blame him for having his doubts or concerns. Frank knows all too well how it feels to be laid up broken in bed, feeling helpless and faithless.
"But you're still not me, right?" He nudges Matt gently. "I hope not."
He smiles, but it doesn't quit reach his eyes. Matt still doesn't know what he would have done had Vanessa not spoken up. Would he have crossed the line? It had been harder than ever to reign himself in at that moment.
But he was getting better at letting go of his hang ups. Maybe he wouldn't ever get to that point again.
"I really thought I was going to kill him, Frank. I really - It seemed like the only way."
In another time and space entirely, Frank would have berated him for not giving Fisk the killing blow, but they've both learned and changed much since that day on the rooftop. Frank knows the burden of taking a life and what that means from there on out, and it isn't something he thinks Matt could handle. Leave it to people like Frank to decide.
He gives Matt's middle a comforting squeeze, defensive and protective. Yeah, those emotions weren't on the forefront of his mind when they first met too.
"He definitely deserves it but not from you. That's not you." Frank knows Fisk will get what he deserves at some point, whether through Frank's means or someone else's. "Showing him mercy isn't something he expected, I'm sure."
"If I'd done it, then he would have won in the end." More or less. He thinks that maybe Fisk would have spent that last moment of life gloating.
It's not something worth thinking about. What is worth thinking about is Frank, and the two of them together, and how comfortable Matt feels being around him again.
"I was thinking I might call in sick to work today."
Yeah, he would much rather focus on the present as well. Frank has spent so many days lingering in the past, being haunted by the past, and wondering what he could have done to change things. With Russo in the ground he finally feels like he can let parts of those worries go at last.
Parts.
"Yeah? Since when are you irresponsible?" There's a smirk in his tone and Frank chuckles as he leans his head back against the headboard, content to sit here with Matt's weight on him. "Gonna spend the day with me?"
![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
no subject
He's not sure what else to say. Apologizing seems insincere, it definitely doesn't make up for all the bullshit Matt's pulled, but.
"I was pretty lost, too. I kept thinking about what you said to me once. I'm just one bad day away from being you. I get that now."
no subject
"But you're still not me, right?" He nudges Matt gently. "I hope not."
no subject
He smiles, but it doesn't quit reach his eyes. Matt still doesn't know what he would have done had Vanessa not spoken up. Would he have crossed the line? It had been harder than ever to reign himself in at that moment.
But he was getting better at letting go of his hang ups. Maybe he wouldn't ever get to that point again.
"I really thought I was going to kill him, Frank. I really - It seemed like the only way."
no subject
He gives Matt's middle a comforting squeeze, defensive and protective. Yeah, those emotions weren't on the forefront of his mind when they first met too.
"He definitely deserves it but not from you. That's not you." Frank knows Fisk will get what he deserves at some point, whether through Frank's means or someone else's. "Showing him mercy isn't something he expected, I'm sure."
no subject
It's not something worth thinking about. What is worth thinking about is Frank, and the two of them together, and how comfortable Matt feels being around him again.
"I was thinking I might call in sick to work today."
no subject
Parts.
"Yeah? Since when are you irresponsible?" There's a smirk in his tone and Frank chuckles as he leans his head back against the headboard, content to sit here with Matt's weight on him. "Gonna spend the day with me?"